The Farewell

Yesterday was the mass departure for some of us, including me, from our beloved facebook online game clan, called Suikoden. The chatroom of this small clan was filled with a mixture of emotions, relief, sadness, disappointment, shock, and even a slight anger. Well all in all the departure and farewell went pretty quick. Though it was kinda abrupt but I think it was for the best. The longer it takes the harder it is for those who were leaving as well as for those who’re staying. It’s funny how most of us get so emotional of this little community created solely for entertainment purpose. If you weren’t apart of it you’d never understand that feeling. A lot of ignorant people will dismiss the sentiment as virtual obsession. Yes everything was virtual but I can assure 1 thing that is real and that is the friendship we built through playing it and being a part of this little virtual community.

Suikoden is the 1st online game clan (well it’s not even exactly a true blue online game) that I actually got so attached and involved in. I’d say that now I finally have a taste of what some of those online game addicts feel. With this, I understand that gamers sometime are not addicted because of their obsession to be powerful (in the game), to escape reality but instead, it maybe the bond and attachment that they’ve built with various people over the net that prevent them from leaving. All in all, it has been a fun ride. It allows me to keep in touch with my real life friends who’re residing at different part of the world. It also allows me to get to know more friends who I may actually going meet in real life someday. If not because of this stupid facebook application, our path may never cross for the rest of our lives.

Anyway, sometime it seems that it’s better not to get too attached to anything because you’ll never when you’re going to lose it.

Lastly, I wish all my Suikoden peeps all the best in their furture endeavor.

The Farewell

Life’s a Drama

For the past week since my exam was over, I found myself got entangled up in a few dramatic situation. First of all was me sulking and getting all moody over my poor performance in exam. After that, it was my friend turn sulk to over his. Then we talked to find out who’s worse. -_-” A few days later, one of my friends suddenly became overly irritating but I couldn’t do anything about it for some reasons. I figured I should lay my opinions somewhere to prevent it from accumulating to frustration. And well I did. And just 1 or 2 days back, in my online gaming clan, there was a member who raised a complain regarding a certain situation. The complain caused a few members to get quite emotional and the situation became more dramatic than it should’ve been.

This suddenly reminds me of how our lives are, in one way or another, similar to those Korean, Japanese, Chinese or Singapore drama. The basic idea behind the plot is the same and that is one’s emotion(s)/feeling(s) affects another person’s emotion, which in turn affects another’s. This chain reaction create a story. You often hear people say they want to live a happy life or they only long for happiness in their life. But you never hear people wanting misery or sadness to be part of their lives. However, the ugly truth is we can’t live without it. If we can’t have it in our lives, we unconsciously wish it to happen in our friends’ so we can be apart of that misery. And if it doesn’t happen in our lives and neither our friends’ lives, we will crave for it by other means. This is precisely why people loves watching those Asian dramas or those reality shows. To feel emotion, get emotional and ultimately, share that emotions.  But if you ask, not many of them will admit it. The reason is probably lie in my previous entry, titled “unappreciated“. There also the other bunch of people where they have “very good” reasons for doing so like “Dramas are interesting”, “drama helps you understand life”, “they teach us life lesson”, or a more sophisticated reason will be “drama is an art that portrays philosophy of life”. Let’s dissect those few reasons.

“Interesting” is most vague answer one can possibly give. What makes drama interesting. Is it the part where it makes cry? or the part where it makes you smile after you cry? or the part where it makes you curse the plot for making the characters so dumb and fall into every emotional trap that could never possibly happen in real life (well that is according to you of course)? “Dramas are interesting.” is a statement and not a reason.

Let’s move on to “helps us understand life” and “teach us life lesson”. Fun fact, this is what my mom told me when I made an ignorant comment about drama series being predictable, unrealistic, and boring. Well if you have seen enough of the outside world, you’d come to understand that life is far to complex and individualistic for drama to help us understand it, let alone teach us life lesson. What it does is exaggerate situation that some of us may face in life for us to relate our feelings and memory with. It’s funny how we human tend to find solace in other’s misery. On the surface we deny it but underneath we succumb to it.

I think I’m getting quite carried away with this so I’m just gonna end it here. This is 1 of the things we think and don’t say.

Life’s a Drama